denial

I dont wanna think about finals. this is scalpered off of multiply (just like the pictures for my chinese album thank you joanie) in a desperate attempt to block out the thoughts of impending doom.

What would you do if..

1. may lumipad na ipis sa mukha mo?
- scream and run. shake off ipis. scream and run some more... scrub my face.

2. hinalikan ka bigla ng crush mo sa LIPS?
- turn red and gape like an idiot.

3. naging classmate mo yung ex mo???
- ehrm... depends on how things ended I suppose..

4. dinedma ka ng bf/gf mo?
- Deadma lang rin siguro..

5. kinalimutan ka na ng bf/gf mo?
- what is this a telenovela?

6. hindi ka binigyan ng allowance ng parents mo?
- ride it out.. I save a portion of my allowance so I should be fine for a while.

7. napatingin sayo yung crush mo habang nakatitig ka sa kanya?
- pretend to exit tama mode, smile, and look away.

8. dalawa kayong mahal ng mahal mo??
- MU na yan right? -shrug- see what happens I guess.

9. nagsasaya ka tapos pinatugtog bigla yung song na nagpapa-alala sayo sa ex
mo na mahal mo pa?
- get out of there or whip out my ipod and play some of my happy music i.e. Snow Patrol, FCPREMIX, Joon Khodet (not racist! :D) Motion city soundtrack and OK Go

10. nawala lahat ng kayamanan nio?
- I'd be back in Cebu and working it out with my family.

11. nahuli mong may kahalikang iba yung guy/gurl mo?
- I'd like to think I'd have the presence of mind not to bitch slap the shit out of the both of them or run away.

12. nawala pera mo habang nagsho-shopping?
- well that sort of happens when you shop, you spend the money and then it's generally gone. :D

13. nakakita ka ng bloody knife sa cabinet mo?
- be disgusted and find out who's knife it is

14. nde ka sinip0t ng bf/gf mo sa araw ng monthsary/anniversary niyo?
- that'd sort of suck. tampo hahahaha...

15. may dumaan na multo sa harap mo?
- shudder, get up and walk away slowly while repeating the denial mantra.

16 . dinededma ka lang ng nililigawan mo pero tumatanggap ng regalo galing
sayo?
- (hypothetically) stop buying her gifts and move on. cupboard love is crap.

17. may nagsuicide nang dahil syo?
- be freaked out and flattered in a dark and twisted way..

18. tumawag si sadako?!
- ask her if she could come a little earlier so that I don't have to take my finals..

19. nagpakita sayo ang kaluluwa ni FPJ?!
- I'd go all Danny Phenton and whoop his metaphysical ass (Danny Phenton is cooll!! hahaha neeeeerd..:D)

20. nagka-crush ka bigla sa fwend mo?
- yeah well that's happened. I act like an idiot and its generally a "shitstorm"

21. nakisilong sayo yung crush mo kase umuulan tpos wla ng payong pero ikaw
meron?
- pasilong :D be all giggly inside.. dutdot and try not to get wet ;p

22. may nagtext sayo na papatayin ka daw nia?
- delete, ignore.

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1. are you younger than 19?
** 2 years shy of.

2. do you have the letter 'f' in your name?
** you'd think it would be in there somewhere but nope...

4. do you like the color green?
** Yeah :) its actually one of my favorite (La salle not withstnading ;P hahahaha... joke ra
)

5. do you have a crush on someone?
** Yeah..

6. are you in a relationship?
** Nope..

7. ever kissed someone of the same sex?
** not in the way I think you're referring to..

8. ever eaten soap?
** think I have :)) little monkey children aren't very discerning about what they put in their mouths..

11. what song are you listening to right now?
** Everything is all right by Motion city soundtrack

12. is there a place you would like to visit?
** home... one more week, one more week...

13. have you ever fell into a mud puddle?
** Not yet :D I don't doubt that it'll happen one of these days..

14. do you like winter?
** Cold weather=love :)

5. does your screen name have numbers in it?
** Nope...

16. are you in a band?
** the imaginary band that's touring the world in my brain? yeah... :D


17 . do you like parties?
** generally not so much... but there are exceptions.

18. what are you scared of?
** brackish water? hahaha stupid yeah... IPIS.. being alone, failing, the world.

19. how long have you had your Friendster for?
** 4 years and It has been used for a cumulative total of 9 months hahaha.

20. Favorite beverage?
** Ice cold water, iced tea, milk (hahaha.. natakdan ni Mylene)

21. favorite subject in school?
** Currently Chinese :) wo ai Hanyu..

2 2. if you could own a monkey, would you?
** Own no, keep long enough to pass on to someone who'd be willing to touch it long enough to kill the miserable creature yes. Me no likey monkies.

24. do you listen to rap?
** chinese rap!!! hahahaha.. not really ;p

2 5. favorite disney movie?
** Lilo and Stich!! hahaha i dunno I haven't watched a Disney flick in ages...

27 . what was your first YM name?
** purple_steelsafetypin---> still is... gahd I need to change it

28. do you like fruits?
** Bananas!! I cant believe they cost 8-12 pesos here though... tsktsk

29. do you have a phone?
** there are two here in the dorm but they're not mine... there are 2 at home but they aren't mine either...

30. have you ever given a random person your number?
** Not a random person but a not really well known person and yeah it sorta sucked... and not just the grammar... shudder...

31. do you think you're attractive?
** sometimes I pretend that I am :D

32. how clean is your haws?
** uhmmm... very uhm not...

33. what color is your haws?
** white. allllll white... and we have a big white wall with spikes on top.... and a quaint green gate :D hahaha...

34. is there a calendar in your haws?
** yeah there're a bunch... no one uses them though..

35. do you regret anything..
** i regret not having really lived in high school, that stupid mark letter fiasco, not studying when I know I should and not trying or being good enough.

36 . what are you excited for?
** Sembreak. I get to go home :) and then theres a trip to CDO for trish's debut :D weeeee!

37. Are you artistic?
** Yeah :) its my happy thing..

38. do you have a cellphone?
** hahaha... yeah, but its on loan from my roommate! sigh.... my phone fell into the LS pool and now all it does is go Bzzzzzzzzzzz...

40. color of cellphone?
** silver, and white in places where the paint's chipped.

41. do you cry yourself to sleep?
** not regularly no.

43. do you like to sleep?
** YES. If I didn't need to do anything else I'd sleep all the time.

45. do you get bored easily?
** Yeah...

46. how many pillows do you sleep with?
** I have 3. one of them is sorta smallish...

47. #????
** lingjiuyiliuerliusibayisiling hahahaha....

48. do you like english classes?
** Yup don't have em anymore though.... :)

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Today Did You-
1. Talk to a boy/girl you like?
- not in person...

2. Learn anything new?
- we have nicotine neurons?? weird...

3.Talked to an ex?
- not applicable.

4.Miss someone?
- A whole bunch of people really...

-Last Person Who-
5.Laid in your bed?
- Me. my bed is MINE muhamuhaha...

6. Made you cry?
-Daddy...

7. You went to the movies with?
-I thiiiiiiiinkk it would have to be Rush hour 3 with Dea, mylene, royce, inting, lloyd, and paje

8. Went to the mall with you?
- see previous, haven't really been out since then. hahaha lame? yes I know... T.T

9. You showered with?
- Crissy!! (not in the same stall you pervs)

10. Made you laugh?
- Tara :)

11. Hugged you?
- Anjo

-General stuff-
16. Favorite location?!
- my bed.

17. Tattoo?
- I got a henna before... that counts right?

18. What are you most scared of this second ?
- not finishing fil, failing accounting, not doing brilliantly enough on the math finals, getting a difficult chinese orals partner, not doing well in school, becoming depressed, disappointing my parents... school shit basically.

19. Where do you want to get married?
- On a beach or somewhere outdoors... no wedding church for me please.

21. Does anyone like you?
- Sure. I'm generally a like-able person... (but probably not in the way your thinking)

22. Do you like being around people?
- It really depends what kind of people ;P

23.Have you ever cried?
- I never cried as a baby but I did a lot of tear dripping when I was in grade school, a fair deal in high school but not a lot in college...

24. Are you lonely right now?
- yeah.

25. Song stuck in your head?
- ai dao by farenheit... chinese boy band!! hahahaha...

26. Been on radio/TV?
- yes, no.

28. Ever liked someone who treated you like crap?
- nope... I fall for the nice boys haha..

29. What are you wearing right now?
- terjers batch shirt, white shorts.

31. Name three things that you do every day?
- sleep, eat, breathe.

32. How much cash do you have on you right now?
- a grand total of 18 pesos. Ill be withdrawing tomorrow...

33. Are you bored?
- Im in a state of self inflicted numbness that can be construed as boredom i suppose...

38. What web site do you visit the most?
- yahoo.. possibly blogger and devart..

39. Do you have plants in your room?
- nope...

41. Who was the last person to hug you?
- Anjo

-26 SECRETS
1.WHAT IS YOUR DISPLAY NAME ABOUT?
- its a jumbled parody of orange_rubberbandaid made by my messed up teenybopper brain... gohd i need to change it na jud...

2. WHERE WAS YOUR DEFAULT PICTURE TAKEN?
- Its in my vista thingy... Im gonna put up my camwhory pic with Trish from last summer eventually.. I hope... hahaha :)

4.WHAT 'S YOUR CURRENT RELATIONSHIP STATUS?
- Bitter single

5. HONESTLY, IF SOMEONE WERE TO TELL YOU HOW THEY FELT, WOULD YOU LISTEN?
- most likely I would. I only tune out people when I know they're being turd brains.

6. WHATS YOUR CURRENT MOOD?
- worried, pessimistic, funkeh basically..

7. WHATS YOUR MOST VALUED POSSESSION?
- I don't assign values to things. I value people, but you cant "possess" people unless your a moomoo in which case its a whole other kind of possessing...

8 . HOW ARE THINGS IN YOUR RELATIONSHIP?
- (it's going great [perfection is acheived in non-existence])<>

9. IF YOU COULD GO BACK IN TIME, AND CHANGE SOMETHING WOULD YOU?
- Yes.

11. IF YOU MUST BE AN ANIMAL FOR ONE DAY- WHAT WOULD YOU BE?
- id be a bird... and drop doodie on my teachers. muhamuhaha

12. EVER HAD A NEAR DEATH EXPERIENCE?
- almost drowned as a kid... jumped back in the pool 5 minutes later..

16. NAME SOMEONE WITH THE SAME B-DAY AS YOU?
- Mrs. Rosalina Alfeche (maam chem sa sci-hi) and Antonio Sy (anak ni Auntie monie).

17. HAVE YOU EVER SANG IN FRONT OF A LARGE AUDIENCE?
- sadly yes.

18. WHAT'S THE FIRST THING YOU NOTICE ABOUT THE OPPOSITE SEX ?
- eyes... and glasses if they're wearing some :>

19. WHAT DO YOU USUALLY ORDER FROM STARBUCKS?
- vanilla frap... me no likey coffee...

20. HAVE YOU EVER HAD A DRUNKEN WEEK?
- drunk on life :)) i.e. simply sabog.

21. DO YOU STILL WATCH KIDDY MOVIES OR TV SHOWS?
- yeah :) go disneychannel!

24 . DO YOU SPEAK ANY OTHER LANGUAGE?
- I speak 4 languages.. bulok lang paminsan, kay usahay magkasagol, ni tong ma?

25. IS THERE SOMEONE ON YOUR MIND NOW?
- Don't wanna think about it.

26. WHAT HURTS YOU AT THE MOMENT?
- my eyes... I think i need glasses.. gahd.

49. do you like hugs and kisses?
** yeah :) hugs are the best...

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01.What does your shout out mean?
-- Its a proclamation of lethargy.

02. What does your default photo mean?
-- its a little doggie wearing glasses.. it defies meaning with its cute-ness.

03. Who is the first person on your top6?
-- top six wha?

04. What's your current status?
-- haven't you asked this already?

05 . What are you wearing right now?
-- this too

06. What's your current problem?
-- FINALS. SHOOT ME NOOOOOOWWWW.

07. Do you have a Date this Friday?
-- were planning a post finals lakad :)

08. What makes you the happiest person?
-- sleeping in during a signal 3 storm knowing that class has been suspended and you don't have to think about anything for the rest of today and tomorrow. talking with friends and finishing a really good book. air guitar when no ones looking, music. comfort food, hugs.

09. Have you ever met anyone from Friendster?
-- Yep.

10. What were you doing at midnight last night?
-- sleeping like a squishy log.

11. If you could go back in time and change something what would it be?
-- my lack of a substantial social life in high school.

12. What are your nervous habits?
-- I talk to myself in rapid English. sometimes bisaya or both.

13. Ever had a near death experience?
-- Yes.

WHERE IS # 14?! -- probably got tired of this uber long Q and A bit..

15. What's the name of the song that's stuck in your mind right now?
-- ai dao.

16. Any celeb you would marry?
- No. their lives are messy.

17. Who will cut and paste this first?
-- No one reads my blog so I'm guessing this is scalper safe here..

18. Do you have a crush on someone?
-- its formally known as a pisting giahak nganu ganhan ko nimo crush.

19. Have you ever vandalized someones private property?
-- yes *evil grin*

20. What does your 4th text message you sent say?
-- Uhm I dont have a sent box but I think its to tara about felix rivera my gay happy crush (why cruel world?)

21. What does your last received text say?
-- I was in the dorm! I think you mean thursday. :)

22. Have you ever hurt yourself on purpose?
-- Yeah.

23. Say something totally random about you.
-- I tap dance in the shower??

24. Has anyone ever said you looked like a celebrity?
-- yeah... but I don't think I look any thing like the them.. (its happened thrice with 3 different celebs and three different visually impaired people)

25. Do you do videoke?
-- not in public hahaha...

26. Do you listen to System of a Down?
-- I think I used to...

27. What is the closest thing to you?
-- phonebooks...

28. Do you have anything pierced?
-- nope..

29. Do you eat fish?
-- yupyup.. I remember refusing to eat anything but bulad for 2 weeks when I was 5.

30. Do you like pain?
-- I'm no masochist thanks..

31. Do you like to shop?
-- Sort of I guess... just not for long periods of time...

32. Whose bed did you last sleep in?
-- My own.

33. What was the last thing you paid for with a credit card?
-- i don't have one... I bought school supplies with my bpi card though if that counts.

34. Who was the last person you talked to on the phone?
-- Tarara...

35. Do you have any weird relatives?
-- Basically were all loopy

36. What was the last movie you watched?
-- something regine velasquez-aga mulach... I watched with my rabid regine fan friend :)

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1. What do you think of the most when you are alone?
-- loneliness, things I have to do, things I want to do, people I want to be with.

2. When it is a rainy night, what do you do most of the time?
-- snuggle in bed and read.

3. If you’ll go on a date, what would you like to do?
-- musical, dinner, ice skating, chilling... it doesn't really matter what you're doing, its who your with that counts.

4. What do you do when you see a full moon?
-- smile

5. Would you rather swim in the lake or dive in the ocean?
-- whichever is cleaner and has less stuff swimming around with/under me...

6. What would be the best partner of a good cup of coffee?
-- a pitcher of milk and a lot of sugar..

7. If you’ll ask yourself a question now, what would it be?
--How are you gonna pull this off?


8. If certain things in your life will fall apart, what will you do?
-- break down for a day and then roll up my sleeves and make repairs.

9. What was the hardest decision you made in your life so far?
-- shifting out of mh

10. When your friends forget you, what will you do?
-- They're not friends if they do.

11. I’ve come to realize that…
-- I need to get in gear.

12. I am listening to…
— me typin, someone else typing, the whir of a distant fan

13. Maybe I should…
— be studying for accounting or making those fucking fil papers.

14. I love…
— staying home in stormy weather and hugs :)

15. The best days of my life was…
— impromptu Baguio trip with my family

16. I don’t understand…
— why I think he's so damn wonderful.

17. I’ve lost…
— the bounce in my step.

18. People say…
— that I have lots of friends. I KNOW I lot of people. It hardly means they're my friends.

19. The meaning of my screen name is…
— it has no meaning. much like the word gliberfwee... I made it up just now...

20. Love…
— is a shit-storm waiting to happen.

21. Somewhere, someone is…
— offing themselves.

12. I will always…
— laugh when I see that pic of Pami and Claire on Crissy's 17th bday last year.

13. Forever seems…
— like a vague abstraction that no one can promise you. Its not theirs to begin with.

14. I never want to…
— fail.

15. My mobile phone is...
— staring me in the face with a black screen. no ones there at 2 in the morning.

16. I believe that…
— I can get through this.

17. I get annoyed when…
— people do nothing but bitch incoherently and go on and on about how the world is out to get them and everything sucks because they say so. SHUT THE FUCK UP.

18. I am better…
— at pretending now.

19. I fear that…
— my life is going nowhere

20. Kisses are the best when…
— you don't know they're coming

21. Today I…
— wasted a butt-load of time.

22. Tonight I will…
— be studying my ass off.

23. Tomorrow I will…
— move on to study my thighs off, possibly through down to my ankles.

24. I really want to…
— do well in the finals...

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1. anong ayos ng buhok mo ngayon?
- lugay... gulo pero somehow behaved... It always looks better when I'm at home hahaha...

2. kumusta na ang puso mo?
- still pumping type O blood round and round my circulatory system..

3. may iniisip ka ba ngayon?
- Yup. finals. XD

4. madali ka bang magalit?
- Galit no. inis yes...

5. kelan ka huling nakakita ng unggoy?
- In real life? Subic when I was 9... I should have stoned the buggers when I had the chance...

6. kelan ka huling uminom ng taho kasama tatay mo?
- never...

7. anong huli mong ininom?
- instant batchoy broth... msg yumyumyum...

8. my crush k b ngayun??
- sana nalang wala pero meron... atay ba...

9. single? taken? o reserved?
- reserved...

10. kelan ka huling tumawa?
- about 15 minutes ago...

11. madali ka bang maimpluwensyahan?
- on most things yeah... but I have thick boundaries about certain things that aren't bufging any time soon.

13. e may lakad ka ba mamaya?
- Wala.

14. may pinoproblema ka ba ngayon?
- finals. :|

15. anong pinakagusto mong nabili last week?
- double choco mouse from Gatteu de manila

16. mahilig ka bang tumakbo?
- no.

17. anong huli mong napanood sa tv?
- uhhhh... TV???

18. halata ba pag may problema ka?
- Not unless I don't care whether people know or not.

19. madali ka bang magpatawad?
- Not on the big things no.

20. malikot ka ba?
- depends...

21. anong gusto mo ngayon?
- KFC... crave crave...

22. last friends you have been with?
- Jami and Richmay...

23. ilan ang sim mo?
- one lang... go globe! harhar...

24. sino madalas mO ka text?
- Tara

25. anong pinapakinggan mo ngayon?
- wala.

26. san ka makikita this sunday?
- Somewhere in Cebu City Cebu :)

27. may curfew ka ba?
- technically speaking meron...

28. anong pinagkakaabalahan mo ngaun?
-ACCOUNTING, FILIPINO, lost ID... god damn it...

29. sa palagay mo cno sunod na ssagot sa survey na to?
- someone I don't know, because the next person to answer this wont get it from me.

30. cno ung taong huling nagpaiyak sayo?
- Daddy...

31. sa tingin mo, mahal ka ng taong mahal mo?
- yeah... platonically. damn.